Dear Negative ego re: [illusion]

I was contemplating upon the actions of a friend. I observe that he often pretends to be something he is not. I see how you the negative ego works within him, to give him a false sense of confidence, a false sense of security and a false sense of reality.

You tried to make me CRINGE when he said somethings he should not have said in front of people he didn't know that well, in an attempt to show that he is knowledgeable. Unfortunately, it only shows how ignorant he really was, like a frog in a well. You almost succeeded in making me feel embarrassed for him. But I took a step back and reminded myself that this is not my lesson. And that I am not responsible for his actions so I am not going to give you, negative ego the pleasure of putting me in a position of being embarrassed. Because embarrassment is one of yours, and is not of God.

Be gone negative ego! I won't buy into your illusion.

Dear Negative ego re: [health]

Yesterday, while having breakfast at the hotel in Hong Kong someone eating heartily away caught my eye. He was an overweight gentleman eating a plate of full chocolate doughnuts and bacon. You jumped in immediately and said in a judgmental way, it won't be long before he has a heart attack! 

I let your comment slide off and chose not to energize it further. But my mind was also pre-occupied with thinking, what will I say to my daughter if she saw that man eating what he ate, when I just told her that we don't eat these things because it is unhealthy. I remained centred and prepared a reply in my mind on what to say to her (in a non-judgmental way towards anyone) should she ask.

Negative ego, I am not going to allow you to put me in a position of dilemma and I will speak the truth, in a non-judgmental way especially in educating my young child. Bye negative ego, be gone.

Dear Negative ego re: [vigilance]

I facilitated a mini workshop last night to a group of about 55 women. The topic was on Romantic Relationship & Communication. It was by and large a good mini workshop.

At the end the workshop, the women were given survey forms to fill in to assist us to improve on our services and also for market research. After the whole workshop was over, we looked through the forms to see the kinds of feedback we were getting.

One of the forms stood out from the rest. The question asked was, how relevant was the topic of the workshop to the participant. The answer was, not relevant and poor relevance.

You negative ego zeroed on on that immediately tried to jump in and I could hear your voice saying, "Then why did she come to the workshop? The title was self explanatory! It was for women only! And it was on relationship and communication! What was she thinking?"

I observed what you said, but let it slide off and didn't energise it further. I was having a good day and a good end to the day and I was not about to let you ruin it for me. You can say whatever you want about the feedback from that person, but I am not taking what has been said personally. It is none of my business why the person came. I was there, I delivered well and I know many gained a lot from it.

Negative ego be gone!

Dear Negative Ego re: [judgment]

Yesterday, you tried to jump in as I was listening to a friend complaining about some things and some people in her life. As I was listening to her, I discerned that everything she was complaining about other people are the exact same things that she does to other people as well. Immediately, you jumped in and said, she deserves what she gets! 

I pushed you out of my mind and then you tried to jump in again, with the thought: you are not discerning, you are judging.

I see your game negative ego, you try to introduce thoughts of confusion. But I know better than that, I know that when I discern, I am observing and understanding. Judgments are not of God and I have no desire to give it the power and attention it doesn't deserve. Be gone, negative ego!

Dear Negative Ego re: [parenting]

I saw how you tried to get to my daughter yesterday...she was cranky for the first part of the day. Blaming everything and everyone for everything. So I said to her teasingly while smiling, "Oh you're such a victim, poor little you. Why did you then give your power away?"

Then she said innocently, "No, the power didn't flow out of my hands" So I said, "Good, keep it."

Later she was given a one minute time out for bad behaviour. You, negative ego didn't like it one bit. I saw how you tried to put her in a state of confusion and conflict. And I insisted that she apologised to everyone. And she willingly obliged, "Ok mummy" and was happier afterwards.

It is always good to get you out of the way, negative ego! I know my daughter has not fully grasp the concept of personal power but she is slowly understanding that she has a choice in creating how she feels. So negative ego, I won't let you stay long in our household, be gone!

Dear Negative Ego re: [duality]

This morning, one of my neighbours who lives below us was screaming at her live in helper on the balcony. She screamed for a long time.

You negative ego tried to put me in a state of your duality, by first saying it is none of my business and I should just keep quiet despite the screams and noise made early in the morning. And then you decided to swing to the other extreme by saying that, I should go down there and tell her off because she was waking up the whole estate.

I thought to myself, I am not going to listen to you negative ego. But I will take action that will neither be intrusive nor offensive. So I called up the security guards and told them of the situation. They said they will have a look and will remind her of the disturbance she is causing to her neighbours. That calmed the situation for now.

I observe that this neighbour is bordering on psychologically abusing her helper and if out of control she might just physically abuse her as well. I said to myself that I will do whatever I can to inform the authorities if things get out of hand, because I can see clearly what goes on on her balcony from my office at home.

(The helper like many others in Singapore are foreigners coming here to earn a meagre income for hardwork [modern day slavery] and often times do not realise that they have rights as human beings because they grew up in third world countries with little understanding of this concept of human rights.)

Negative ego I will not listen to the illusion of your duality. I will do whatever I can that is spiritually and karmically right for my fellow brother/sister in need.

Dear Negative Ego re: [judgment]

I see how you operate in so many aspects of life, within myself, within other people. The over-identification with your thought system in mass consciousness and especially in 'spiritual' practitioners is mind boggling.

As part of my service work, I give update quotient and initiation readings to interested parties. About 5% of the recipients of this reading are not happy with what they receive and will attack back in various ways and means. During times like these, you try to influence me to give up what I do - because you say it is not worth it, and you say that this job doesn't have any rewards and that I am a punching bag for people who do not like what they hear. You also say that people love to shoot the messenger!

But I refuse to fight negative ego with negative ego. I will continue to fight these thoughts with God consciousness for I know the benefits that many others have gained from this service.

I have been attacked many times over the course of 6 years doing this sort of readings, and I know that no matter what I say in return in kindness, in compassion, in love, it will always be misinterpreted because you have influenced the 'attackers' mindset. The interesting thing is that the attacks only goes to 'prove' that the update evaluation of where they stand in their evolution was right. All I can do is reach out to God and remain silent because there is nothing to defend.

Negative ego, I will not give in to you in this. I will continue to dis-identify the attackers' actions from their true essence. I will recognize them for who they are i.e. a divine beings, no matter what. When I do this, I also give myself the opportunity to recognize my own divinity. So negative ego, I don't need your help in this, be gone!

Dear Negative Ego re: {personal power}

I was speaking to someone I know quite well on the phone and the connection was not very good and I misheard her. In her agitation, she shouted at me in a contemptuous way as though I was being daft. You tried to make me retaliate, but I held on to the breath of God and breathe it in me. And re-established my golden bubble. I continued on the conversation as if nothing has happened.

This has taught me once again to be extra vigilant when interacting with this person, because it teaches me how not to behave. And most certainly the contempt and agitation displayed is not about me, but her.

Thanks, but no thanks negative ego, I certainly do not need your help in this. Be gone!

{I've been having problems with blogger the last few days and just couldn't post anything on this blog and this is why there has been an absence. :-) }

Dear Negative ego re: [judgment]

Yesterday I encountered some inconsiderate people at my daughter's pre-school ballet class and you tried to get me to jump onto the bandwagon to join in the negative ego party. But I coolly walked away without allowing the situation to escalate.

It was a really small issue but was a big deal to others, and I will not give you the satisfaction of having any judgments towards them. Other people's lessons are not mine. I only focus on what I need to learn from this situation through observation. And when next weekend comes around, I know what not to do. 

Thank you very much for this lesson but God is my way.

Dear Negative ego re: [inner child]

I had a good laugh yesterday while playing tennis with my coach. Coach said that I looked tired and that I should break as I was not breathing properly while I was hitting the ball. And you instigated my inner child with this fleeting thought: "What does he know? He is less fit than you are, you can run around the block for hours while he pants like crazy hitting a few balls!"

I laughed at you and your attempts and immediately said to coach, "Yes, I agree with you, I think I was not conscious of my breathing while I was doing my ground strokes. I will pay attention in the next round."

You withered away with those words and I grinned to myself. Coach looked at me with a look like he was wondering why I was grinning like a nut. But never mind, it is better to have someone think I am nuts than to give my power away to you. Bye bye negative ego!

Dear Negative ego re: [illusion]

You are just an illusion attempting to make yourself real. I have to say you are pretty persistent in all your efforts and you have managed to convince most of humanity that you are real. Which makes life on earth a joke. I am not saying this in a sarcastic way, I mean it as it is. Because when people start to realise that you are not real, they will begin to see that indeed it has been a big joke.

I often see the humour in all that you try to dish out in my life which makes me laugh. I see through your game, and I am not going to give in to you and your agendas without a fight. I saw how you tried to pass judgment on a friend yesterday, but I didn't give in, I just let it pass without giving it any energy. I saw how you tried to instill the glamour of being busy in my life. I rather focus on doing the work in service to God, then thinking about the work and indulging in this glamour and not getting anything done.

Your attempts are illusionary, but I will keep up my work to dispel your attempts because my true identity is in God.

Dear Negative ego re: [honesty]

I see how sneaky you can be. I checked out of the hotel in KL yesterday morning and the front desk receptionist didn't show me the invoice, but she told me verbally what the charges were. I thought to myself that the charges were lower than I expected and didn't think anything of it. I paid her the amount in cash, and the lady folded the invoice and placed it inside the envelope.

This morning, when I opened the invoice, I realised that there were several things not listed on the invoice, including a room service meal and broadband services. And you, negative ego said that it is ok because it is not my mistake! Thank God, I live with integrity and immediately contacted the hotel about it.

Negative ego, don't try this with me. I will never live my life in dishonesty even if it was not my mistake. You, be gone now!

Dear Negative ego re: [vigilance]

I had a long and intensive weekend of workshops and you tried to take the opportunity to steer me out of my centredness today - on my last day in Malaysia. I got on the coach to take me back to Singapore, but the journey was longer than usual with hiccups and waiting along the way. It became almost a 7 hour coach ride back. There was also a big group of of tourists on the coach who were talking and shouting at the top of their voices throughout the entire journey. I tried to rest but you kept wanting to interfere by injecting all kinds of judgmental thoughts about the coach service, and the tourists.

I said to you, I'm not going to play into your game....not after a long weekend of vigilance that was maintained. But you know what, I knew that something like this was going to happen because it is always wise to expect to be tested and to be ready for it. Despite the weariness, I remained in the eye of the hurricane and came home at peace with myself and how I handled you and myself.

Dear Negative ego re: [spiritual weariness]

With my busy traveling schedule these days, I can see how you would like to take advantage of this to feed your own gain. But you know what, I've prepared for this in my battleplan. I knew how you would try to manipulate it to your advantage. I am glad I battleplanned for this because I saw how you tried to instigate weariness and tiredness of traveling by finding faults in situations and circumstances in my journey to KL yesterday.

I kept my motivation clear in my mind and that paid off. My spiritual motivation is as strong as ever, and I know that I've taken a clear stand as a teacher/facilitator for God's team.

Cheers to God's team!

Dear Negative ego re: [judgments]

I was at the post office and saw an obese boy, not more than 6 years old being fed french fries by his mum.  You came into my mind at the sight of the mother and child, and you said in a judgmental way, Look at that! I said to you, not now please.

As I continue to observe both mother and child, I recognize that most people are not educated enough to know what is appropriate and what is inappropriate to feed themselves and their children. And I put it all down to ignorance. You tried to jump in again, saying the mother needs a crash course on diet and parenting!

I shook my head to clear your negative thoughts and said to you, it is none of my business what she does. She does what she does because it is the only way she knows how.

Be gone negative ego, I am not going to feed you. I am aligned with God consciousness and recognise the essence of God in both the mother and child.