Dear Negative Ego re: {Patience}

Last week I was tested on how much patience I had when dealing with the administration staff of a Children's Gymnastics school.

I was merely trying to book for a trial class for my daughter for Sat. And so the Monday before that I called the number given. The man who picked up said he would call me back in the afternoon when he had access to the computer. I was fine with that.

No phone call. Wednesday comes, I decided to call again. This time a lady picked up the phone and she tells me that she is not an admin staff and so cannot access the system but said she will leave a message for someone to call me back the next day.

Thursday comes. No phone call. So I called them in the afternoon and spoke to the same man who had no memory of us speaking on Monday and he said he would call me back when he had access to the system. Immediately I stopped him from hanging up by saying, "I will call you tomorrow if you give me a time". He hesitated and said "maybe it is better if I will call you", but I insisted and said, "no it is better I call you, give me a time". So he said to call him at 11am the next day and he was very polite about it.

[Reader, are you running out of patience yet reading this? lol!]

So Friday 11am comes. I call him. No answer. I try again in a few minutes, I got an engaged tone.

By this time, you negative ego was soooo ready to jump into the party! In that split second, you ran a judgmental thought through my mind, "What kind of a business are they running? This is Singapore, and not some third world country!" (no offense to people living in these countries, negative ego was really going for it!)

Immediately, I seized your negative ego thought as if I could literally grasp it by its neck and threw it out! And said to you, "Oh no, you don't. Not now! I've been practicing enough patience so far and I am not going to let you stop me from remaining even minded. Out you go!"

So I made that phone call again at 11.30am, the man answered, got the information I needed and got my daughter registered for Saturday.

[Sasha has since attended the trail class and loved it and will continue to do the class for the entire term. Thank you God for the lesson on patience!]

Bye negative ego.....

Dear Negative Ego [re: accident]

While waiting for the bus this morning, a lady stood next to me and she dropped her umbrella on my toes (I was wearing sandals). The metallic part of the umbrella hit directly on the most sensitive part of my 2nd last small toe. I went ouch! and lifted my leg up not being able to put it down due to the pain.

The lady as if oblivious to what has happened, slowly picked up the umbrella and without looking at me, muttered sorry as though it was my fault for being there! You, negative ego really wanted my inner child to react towards her oblivion, wanting to send her negative vibes. So I said to you, negative ego, come on! this is not what I want to do. And proceeded to tell my body that this is a good reminder to ground my energies through my foot.

I almost chuckled out loud at the comedy of it all. So negative ego, here's another one for laughing you off stage!

Dear Negative Ego re: [dream]

I had a strange dream yesterday where I was conducting a meditation class. Three unusual looking people came to class dressed in oversized black clothes. They were a father, son and daughter. They told me that the mother who was not there introduced them to love and light, which I thought was an odd statement. Just as I was starting the meditation, the sister started to talk on her phone which I chose to ignore. And then the brother started to talk to the person next to him about a guru he has. I told him to keep quiet as we were doing a meditation. Then he spoke even louder about his guru. I raised my voice and told him and his sister firmly that I will not have anyone disrupt the class and if they are not interested they must leave now.

I woke up from the dream, feeling a little dis-oriented, you negative ego tried to instill guilt in me, saying I was not being nice by saying what I said. I did not engage with you emotionally but I took a deep breath, spent some time grounding my energies and cleared my head and realised that it was indeed your voice niggling at me to feel guilt or bad for being firm to the people in the dream. Negative ego I will not have you sabotaging me and my best efforts, not even in my dream state. Be gone!