Dear Negative Ego re: more busy-ness

And so the busy-ness has not stopped, in fact things have increased in tempo in the last 10 days. Because of the untimely move of the office together with the pre-planned (more than 6 months ago) vacation which we are about to take tomorrow, it is now a tsunami of things to do! LOL! And boy, do I see you sneaking in with every opportunity to introduce thoughts and feelings of stress. I am putting out the fires now, but since today is the day where everything it coming together before I go, I know you will be there trying to steer me away from course.

In adjusting budgets for the move and renovation of the new office, I know you will try to sneak in thoughts of lack and say we don't have enough even when we do. So don't even try.

In managing contractors while I am away on vacation, I know you will try to sneak in to say they will do things wrongly if I am not here to supervise them. Well, I am going to have a last meeting with the contractor today and have an easy plan to work with them and I trust the contractor, so negative ego your attempts will be futile.

In managing people who want their sessions yesterday, I just have to explain the situation and hope they will understand. Negative ego, I know you will try to pull me off centre with this one. But I am staying rooted here, I am not going to go buy into your game. I always do my best ad even if situations are beyond my control, I am leaving it in the hands of God.

Negative ego, I know you've been trying to stop me from going on this vacation by saying that when I come back there's going to be more work, so is it worth going? You also say I should bring my laptop to try to sneak in some work because my email inbox is going to be overloaded by the time I get back. But I am not going to give in to you. If it is overloaded, so be it. I will just deal with one thing at a time and prioritise my time, things that are not urgent can always wait because I am going on my vacation whether you like it or not! :)

Dear Negative Ego re: [parenting]

My young daughter has been asking me lots of questions about God, heaven and death. Questions such as where was she before she was born? Did we know each other as little girls when we were in heaven with God? How does God look like? If God made everything, then why are houses built by people?

You negative ego tried to look for easy ways out of this by recommending answers that are delusional and untrue. You will try to look for ways to escape these questions. You do not want her to know the truth, neither do you want her to be educated in the right way.

I make my stand clear with you that I will not allow you to interfere in her spiritual education. I will be creative in my age relevant replies to allow her to understand within her scope. I will not allow you to instill impatience even if her questions come at an 'inconvenient' time. You try so hard at times, but please negative ego you are not winning at this, just be gone!

Dear Negative ego re: [honesty]

I see how sneaky you can be. I checked out of the hotel in KL yesterday morning and the front desk receptionist didn't show me the invoice, but she told me verbally what the charges were. I thought to myself that the charges were lower than I expected and didn't think anything of it. I paid her the amount in cash, and the lady folded the invoice and placed it inside the envelope.

This morning, when I opened the invoice, I realised that there were several things not listed on the invoice, including a room service meal and broadband services. And you, negative ego said that it is ok because it is not my mistake! Thank God, I live with integrity and immediately contacted the hotel about it.

Negative ego, don't try this with me. I will never live my life in dishonesty even if it was not my mistake. You, be gone now!