Dear Negative Ego [victim consciousness]

I found out that one of my friends did something that was not in integrity. I do not want to judge him however his actions indirectly affects me. And this gave you the negative ego the opportunity to jump in to make me feel like a victim of his actions and the situation.

I refused to give in to you to feel like a victim. But you negative ego kept on trying to make me feel uncomfortable to the point of wanting to avoid this person and not wanting to have anything to do with this person.

I am not going to give in to this desire to 'hide', if I plan not to have anything to do with this person anymore, I will do it from a position of power from a position of establishing clear boundaries and not victimization. Negative ego, you can go away. I do not need your help in this. It is not my desire to work with you and I will have compassion for my friend for I perceive that he is blind to his actions and consequences.

Dear Negative ego re: [illusion]

We did a little detour when we had lunch in the city, and hopped on to a monorail to the little island off the mainland. Part of the island has been transformed to a resort, with a cluster of hotels, a casino and universal studios.

While we walked around investigating the changes, I felt a tinge of sadness overcome me. I knew immediately this is your work, negative ego. You made me feel a sense of sadness that the world has come to this -- that an island which used to have beautiful natural surroundings has now been transformed to a concrete jungle of hotels, casino and a playing field to cultivate mammon. 

I quickly pulled you out and said, no I refuse to see the world through your perspective of despair and sadness. Yes it may be true that mammon seems to rule most of the world at this time, but that is not something I should be sad about or to allow you to come in to focus on illusion. I see this as an opportunity to remind me why I am here on earth and that all the more my focus must be in God and Self Realization.

Be gone negative ego!

Dear negative ego re: [compassion & judgment]

Someone sent me an email calling me a 'farce' and saying that I was not 'genuine' and he ended the email with 'love' followed by his initials. I immediately responded in feeling compassion towards him that he would feel a need to attack in order to feel better about himself. I also saw the humour in the contradictory email, one of attack and 'love'.

A few minutes later, however, you negative ego decided that you needed to get in on the act and have your share of the pie as well, so you tried to instigate thoughts of judgment towards this man. I laughed you off and said to you, you are a little late with your comments. I have chosen to respond in compassion and I am going to stick with that!

Go away little one, you have no place in my consciousness.

Dear Negative ego re: [judgment]

Today my sister told me that our grandmother is dying. And I said, "she has been dying for the past 2-3 years".

As I said these words in a matter of fact way, you tried to instill guilt in me that I was being cold or lacking in compassion. The truth is my grandmother is in her 90s and in and out of hospital countless times and the doctor has called for the family to be at her bedside telling us to prepare for her death and this has been done at least 3 times already in the past 2 years. This of course has allowed the family to be very prepared for her transition but grandma remains strong and alive.

I observe that yes, the doctors have given us many false alarms, which is a blessing for the family to prepare but I am not going to allow you, negative ego to instill guilt in me because I am ready for grandma's transition. I am aware that it is a matter of time and I also know that there is no such thing as 'death'.

So negative ego, I know you will try to instill feelings/thoughts that are common in mass consciousness but I am not going to get involved with those lower thoughtforms. I choose to align with the higher understanding of transition and the concept of 'death'.

Dear Negative ego re: [patience]

This must be a season of giving as well as repetitions :-)

I was at the supermarket but I didn't bring my shopping bag as it was an unplanned trip to buy some grocery. I went to the cashier and told her to put everything in one plastic bag. She looked at me as if she understood but proceeded to put my things into two bags, so I repeated my request politely again thinking she didn't hear me the first time. She looked at me again, and then continued to put the things into two bags! At this time, negative ego, you were all ready to pounce in. But I remained centred and refused to engage with you in any way. And I looked and smiled at the cashier and said one more time, please put everything in one bag, gesturing 'one bag' at the same time. Then she finally understood me!

You, negative ego again tried to jump in by saying judgmentally, if she didn't understand why didn't she ask! I brushed you off not wanting to give you any more energy than you deserve.

This may be a season of giving, but I am not giving my power away to you negative ego!

Dear Negative ego re: [vigilance]

A friend offered a service which I needed, I agreed to the terms including the fee knowing that he will not be able to deliver his service in integrity, as this has been a pattern of his from the past. Knowing what I know but because I needed the service (and in my mind decided that this was going to be the last time I use his services), I agreed. But I could see you slowly creeping in.

So the day came and true enough, at the last moment, the service was not up to par which caused some inconvenience to me. But I was prepared for it. In anticipation of what might happen, I created a battleplan before hand on how to handle this. I gave him a chance to right it, but he didn't take it. So remaining centred I did what I had to do. Negative ego, you tried to pull me into judgment of him, as well as self blame. But I told you, I am already prepared for this so don't even try to pull me off centre.

I am glad all turned out well for me in the end. And that I took responsibility for what I created for myself.

Dear Negative ego re: [vigilance]

I knew how you would come in when I am in a half asleep mode so I was really glad I reminded myself to watch out for you.

Last night after being woken up by a loud and incessant vibration from the apartment downstairs, I couldn't go back to sleep as the sound and vibration were going through the floor, the bed and my pillow. I could not figure out what it was, but it sounded like a big machine that was going. I told myself that you would surface to try to pull me off centre, and lo and behold! you did. You introduced judgmental thoughts about the neighbour downstairs. But I refused to listen. I simply went to another room to continue my sleep.

Negative ego, I have had experience of you slipping in easily when I was in half sleep mode, but not this time! Be gone!

Dear Negative ego re: [wronged]

I was trying to be helpful to a friend instead I was accused of being impatient! Boy, did you come in and try to get me going on this. But I said, STOP! None of this nonsense. I am not going to listen to you and your agendas, I've done my part to be helpful and whatever my friend's perceptions are of me is none of my business. I've also looked at my own motives to see if I came from a right place.

Negative ego, I really don't need your help in this, so be gone!

Dear Negative ego re: [health]

Yesterday, while having breakfast at the hotel in Hong Kong someone eating heartily away caught my eye. He was an overweight gentleman eating a plate of full chocolate doughnuts and bacon. You jumped in immediately and said in a judgmental way, it won't be long before he has a heart attack! 

I let your comment slide off and chose not to energize it further. But my mind was also pre-occupied with thinking, what will I say to my daughter if she saw that man eating what he ate, when I just told her that we don't eat these things because it is unhealthy. I remained centred and prepared a reply in my mind on what to say to her (in a non-judgmental way towards anyone) should she ask.

Negative ego, I am not going to allow you to put me in a position of dilemma and I will speak the truth, in a non-judgmental way especially in educating my young child. Bye negative ego, be gone.

Dear Negative Ego re: [judgment]

Yesterday, you tried to jump in as I was listening to a friend complaining about some things and some people in her life. As I was listening to her, I discerned that everything she was complaining about other people are the exact same things that she does to other people as well. Immediately, you jumped in and said, she deserves what she gets! 

I pushed you out of my mind and then you tried to jump in again, with the thought: you are not discerning, you are judging.

I see your game negative ego, you try to introduce thoughts of confusion. But I know better than that, I know that when I discern, I am observing and understanding. Judgments are not of God and I have no desire to give it the power and attention it doesn't deserve. Be gone, negative ego!

Dear Negative Ego re: [duality]

This morning, one of my neighbours who lives below us was screaming at her live in helper on the balcony. She screamed for a long time.

You negative ego tried to put me in a state of your duality, by first saying it is none of my business and I should just keep quiet despite the screams and noise made early in the morning. And then you decided to swing to the other extreme by saying that, I should go down there and tell her off because she was waking up the whole estate.

I thought to myself, I am not going to listen to you negative ego. But I will take action that will neither be intrusive nor offensive. So I called up the security guards and told them of the situation. They said they will have a look and will remind her of the disturbance she is causing to her neighbours. That calmed the situation for now.

I observe that this neighbour is bordering on psychologically abusing her helper and if out of control she might just physically abuse her as well. I said to myself that I will do whatever I can to inform the authorities if things get out of hand, because I can see clearly what goes on on her balcony from my office at home.

(The helper like many others in Singapore are foreigners coming here to earn a meagre income for hardwork [modern day slavery] and often times do not realise that they have rights as human beings because they grew up in third world countries with little understanding of this concept of human rights.)

Negative ego I will not listen to the illusion of your duality. I will do whatever I can that is spiritually and karmically right for my fellow brother/sister in need.

Dear Negative Ego re: [judgment]

I see how you operate in so many aspects of life, within myself, within other people. The over-identification with your thought system in mass consciousness and especially in 'spiritual' practitioners is mind boggling.

As part of my service work, I give update quotient and initiation readings to interested parties. About 5% of the recipients of this reading are not happy with what they receive and will attack back in various ways and means. During times like these, you try to influence me to give up what I do - because you say it is not worth it, and you say that this job doesn't have any rewards and that I am a punching bag for people who do not like what they hear. You also say that people love to shoot the messenger!

But I refuse to fight negative ego with negative ego. I will continue to fight these thoughts with God consciousness for I know the benefits that many others have gained from this service.

I have been attacked many times over the course of 6 years doing this sort of readings, and I know that no matter what I say in return in kindness, in compassion, in love, it will always be misinterpreted because you have influenced the 'attackers' mindset. The interesting thing is that the attacks only goes to 'prove' that the update evaluation of where they stand in their evolution was right. All I can do is reach out to God and remain silent because there is nothing to defend.

Negative ego, I will not give in to you in this. I will continue to dis-identify the attackers' actions from their true essence. I will recognize them for who they are i.e. a divine beings, no matter what. When I do this, I also give myself the opportunity to recognize my own divinity. So negative ego, I don't need your help in this, be gone!

Dear Negative ego re: [judgment]

Yesterday I encountered some inconsiderate people at my daughter's pre-school ballet class and you tried to get me to jump onto the bandwagon to join in the negative ego party. But I coolly walked away without allowing the situation to escalate.

It was a really small issue but was a big deal to others, and I will not give you the satisfaction of having any judgments towards them. Other people's lessons are not mine. I only focus on what I need to learn from this situation through observation. And when next weekend comes around, I know what not to do. 

Thank you very much for this lesson but God is my way.