Dear Negative Ego re: [dream]

I had a strange dream yesterday where I was conducting a meditation class. Three unusual looking people came to class dressed in oversized black clothes. They were a father, son and daughter. They told me that the mother who was not there introduced them to love and light, which I thought was an odd statement. Just as I was starting the meditation, the sister started to talk on her phone which I chose to ignore. And then the brother started to talk to the person next to him about a guru he has. I told him to keep quiet as we were doing a meditation. Then he spoke even louder about his guru. I raised my voice and told him and his sister firmly that I will not have anyone disrupt the class and if they are not interested they must leave now.

I woke up from the dream, feeling a little dis-oriented, you negative ego tried to instill guilt in me, saying I was not being nice by saying what I said. I did not engage with you emotionally but I took a deep breath, spent some time grounding my energies and cleared my head and realised that it was indeed your voice niggling at me to feel guilt or bad for being firm to the people in the dream. Negative ego I will not have you sabotaging me and my best efforts, not even in my dream state. Be gone!

Dear Negative ego re: [judgment]

Today my sister told me that our grandmother is dying. And I said, "she has been dying for the past 2-3 years".

As I said these words in a matter of fact way, you tried to instill guilt in me that I was being cold or lacking in compassion. The truth is my grandmother is in her 90s and in and out of hospital countless times and the doctor has called for the family to be at her bedside telling us to prepare for her death and this has been done at least 3 times already in the past 2 years. This of course has allowed the family to be very prepared for her transition but grandma remains strong and alive.

I observe that yes, the doctors have given us many false alarms, which is a blessing for the family to prepare but I am not going to allow you, negative ego to instill guilt in me because I am ready for grandma's transition. I am aware that it is a matter of time and I also know that there is no such thing as 'death'.

So negative ego, I know you will try to instill feelings/thoughts that are common in mass consciousness but I am not going to get involved with those lower thoughtforms. I choose to align with the higher understanding of transition and the concept of 'death'.

Dear Negative ego re: [care of the physical body]

It is always the same pattern you try to instill in my consciousness whenever I return home away from a weekend of workshops. You try to instill thoughts that I should get on with work the moment I return as there is a backlog of work to catch up on. But I know better, it is important for me to keep the physical body balanced with proper rest. I am not playing into your game of guilt, I focus on what I need to do to remain balance.

The interesting thing is, when I am balanced physically, I find that I do in fact have the time to finish what I plan to do at a much quicker pace! So negative ego, you are not winning at this!

Dear Negative Ego re: {guilt}

The feelings of guilt is something you use a lot to come into the area of parenting. I see it in action in my clients, in other people and I was not surprised when you tried to surface yesterday in my interaction with my daughter.

We were out running errands, and had lunch at the food court. I bought a vegetarian fried rice for her, not knowing that it was going to be slightly spicy. As she began eating it, she said that it was spicy but she insisted on eating it saying that she will drink water at the same time. You tried to move me into guilt. I caught you saying to me, "It is all your fault that she is not able to enjoy her lunch".

Immediately, I laughed at this thought, about how ridiculous it was! You diminished as soon as you surfaced.

My daughter did enjoy her lunch, she said it was delicious.

So negative ego, you can try, but I will never let you get the better of me.