I found out that one of my friends did something that was not in integrity. I do not want to judge him however his actions indirectly affects me. And this gave you the negative ego the opportunity to jump in to make me feel like a victim of his actions and the situation.
I refused to give in to you to feel like a victim. But you negative ego kept on trying to make me feel uncomfortable to the point of wanting to avoid this person and not wanting to have anything to do with this person.
I am not going to give in to this desire to 'hide', if I plan not to have anything to do with this person anymore, I will do it from a position of power from a position of establishing clear boundaries and not victimization. Negative ego, you can go away. I do not need your help in this. It is not my desire to work with you and I will have compassion for my friend for I perceive that he is blind to his actions and consequences.
Showing posts with label confusion. Show all posts
Showing posts with label confusion. Show all posts
Saturday, 5 June 2010
Thursday, 26 November 2009
Dear Negative ego re: [indecision]
While booking for my air ticket for my upcoming trip to HK, you tried to put me in two minds. Because the prices of air tickets have gone up considerably on my preferred dates of travel, you say it is ok to not to make a decision yet, while in the background trying to introduce all kinds of negative thoughts about the travel arrangements.
I observe that you were trying to introduce fuzziness in my mind and to also engage my emotional body in a negative sense. Logically speaking with such a short time span left, there is no chance the prices are coming down, for they will be going up. So I took a deep breath, spent 2 mins to clear my mind and made a decision. I learned from Dr Stone that making a 'bad' decision is better than not making a decision at all and I am glad I didn't flow your train of fuzzy thoughts.
I am happy that all the arrangements have been made, and I am also taking a day off while in HK since I didn't get the preferred date to come home. So I will make use of my day off with some sightseeing and a little half day retreat by myself. Thanks but no thanks to you negative ego.
I observe that you were trying to introduce fuzziness in my mind and to also engage my emotional body in a negative sense. Logically speaking with such a short time span left, there is no chance the prices are coming down, for they will be going up. So I took a deep breath, spent 2 mins to clear my mind and made a decision. I learned from Dr Stone that making a 'bad' decision is better than not making a decision at all and I am glad I didn't flow your train of fuzzy thoughts.
I am happy that all the arrangements have been made, and I am also taking a day off while in HK since I didn't get the preferred date to come home. So I will make use of my day off with some sightseeing and a little half day retreat by myself. Thanks but no thanks to you negative ego.
Tuesday, 20 October 2009
Dear Negative Ego re: [judgment]
Yesterday, you tried to jump in as I was listening to a friend complaining about some things and some people in her life. As I was listening to her, I discerned that everything she was complaining about other people are the exact same things that she does to other people as well. Immediately, you jumped in and said, she deserves what she gets!
I pushed you out of my mind and then you tried to jump in again, with the thought: you are not discerning, you are judging.
I see your game negative ego, you try to introduce thoughts of confusion. But I know better than that, I know that when I discern, I am observing and understanding. Judgments are not of God and I have no desire to give it the power and attention it doesn't deserve. Be gone, negative ego!
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