Dear Negative Ego

I received inspiration from something i read to make things easier for me to 'laugh you off stage' -- everytime you speak, I am going to adjust your tone and pitch to make you sound like a cartoon character, perhaps like Minnie Mouse or Donald Duck.

So I can literally hear you sounding hilariously funny and I am laughing you off the stage now! Byeeee....

Dear Negative Ego [re: accident]

While waiting for the bus this morning, a lady stood next to me and she dropped her umbrella on my toes (I was wearing sandals). The metallic part of the umbrella hit directly on the most sensitive part of my 2nd last small toe. I went ouch! and lifted my leg up not being able to put it down due to the pain.

The lady as if oblivious to what has happened, slowly picked up the umbrella and without looking at me, muttered sorry as though it was my fault for being there! You, negative ego really wanted my inner child to react towards her oblivion, wanting to send her negative vibes. So I said to you, negative ego, come on! this is not what I want to do. And proceeded to tell my body that this is a good reminder to ground my energies through my foot.

I almost chuckled out loud at the comedy of it all. So negative ego, here's another one for laughing you off stage!

Dear Negative Ego re: [laugh]

With so many changes happening right now at the work front and personal front, I can see where and how you would try to jump in to catch me off guard, you have tried many times, and some of the times you did succeed for a short while until I realised it was your doing. Well, I found that the times I managed to pull myself out of your hold, were the times I laughed.

I laughed at my own mistakes, I laughed inside when someone says or does something negative to me, I laughed with loved ones over silly mis-communications, I simply laughed you off. Not only did the laughter offer physical and emotional/mental release of tension, the laughter helped me to think better! So there, negative ego, try to beat the laughter and smile off my face :)

Dear Negative Ego re: more busy-ness

And so the busy-ness has not stopped, in fact things have increased in tempo in the last 10 days. Because of the untimely move of the office together with the pre-planned (more than 6 months ago) vacation which we are about to take tomorrow, it is now a tsunami of things to do! LOL! And boy, do I see you sneaking in with every opportunity to introduce thoughts and feelings of stress. I am putting out the fires now, but since today is the day where everything it coming together before I go, I know you will be there trying to steer me away from course.

In adjusting budgets for the move and renovation of the new office, I know you will try to sneak in thoughts of lack and say we don't have enough even when we do. So don't even try.

In managing contractors while I am away on vacation, I know you will try to sneak in to say they will do things wrongly if I am not here to supervise them. Well, I am going to have a last meeting with the contractor today and have an easy plan to work with them and I trust the contractor, so negative ego your attempts will be futile.

In managing people who want their sessions yesterday, I just have to explain the situation and hope they will understand. Negative ego, I know you will try to pull me off centre with this one. But I am staying rooted here, I am not going to go buy into your game. I always do my best ad even if situations are beyond my control, I am leaving it in the hands of God.

Negative ego, I know you've been trying to stop me from going on this vacation by saying that when I come back there's going to be more work, so is it worth going? You also say I should bring my laptop to try to sneak in some work because my email inbox is going to be overloaded by the time I get back. But I am not going to give in to you. If it is overloaded, so be it. I will just deal with one thing at a time and prioritise my time, things that are not urgent can always wait because I am going on my vacation whether you like it or not! :)

Dear Negative ego re: [inner child]

I had a good laugh yesterday while playing tennis with my coach. Coach said that I looked tired and that I should break as I was not breathing properly while I was hitting the ball. And you instigated my inner child with this fleeting thought: "What does he know? He is less fit than you are, you can run around the block for hours while he pants like crazy hitting a few balls!"

I laughed at you and your attempts and immediately said to coach, "Yes, I agree with you, I think I was not conscious of my breathing while I was doing my ground strokes. I will pay attention in the next round."

You withered away with those words and I grinned to myself. Coach looked at me with a look like he was wondering why I was grinning like a nut. But never mind, it is better to have someone think I am nuts than to give my power away to you. Bye bye negative ego!