And so the busy-ness has not stopped, in fact things have increased in tempo in the last 10 days. Because of the untimely move of the office together with the pre-planned (more than 6 months ago) vacation which we are about to take tomorrow, it is now a tsunami of things to do! LOL! And boy, do I see you sneaking in with every opportunity to introduce thoughts and feelings of stress. I am putting out the fires now, but since today is the day where everything it coming together before I go, I know you will be there trying to steer me away from course.
In adjusting budgets for the move and renovation of the new office, I know you will try to sneak in thoughts of lack and say we don't have enough even when we do. So don't even try.
In managing contractors while I am away on vacation, I know you will try to sneak in to say they will do things wrongly if I am not here to supervise them. Well, I am going to have a last meeting with the contractor today and have an easy plan to work with them and I trust the contractor, so negative ego your attempts will be futile.
In managing people who want their sessions yesterday, I just have to explain the situation and hope they will understand. Negative ego, I know you will try to pull me off centre with this one. But I am staying rooted here, I am not going to go buy into your game. I always do my best ad even if situations are beyond my control, I am leaving it in the hands of God.
Negative ego, I know you've been trying to stop me from going on this vacation by saying that when I come back there's going to be more work, so is it worth going? You also say I should bring my laptop to try to sneak in some work because my email inbox is going to be overloaded by the time I get back. But I am not going to give in to you. If it is overloaded, so be it. I will just deal with one thing at a time and prioritise my time, things that are not urgent can always wait because I am going on my vacation whether you like it or not! :)
Showing posts with label control issues. Show all posts
Showing posts with label control issues. Show all posts
Thursday, 21 January 2010
Tuesday, 29 September 2009
Dear Negative Ego re: {control issues}
Yesterday you knocked on my door countless times trying to egg me on, and putting negative thoughts in my mind in my interactions with this particular person who has aggressive control issues. She keeps trying to tell me what to do and what not to do, when she doesn't have a clear picture of what I do. You then kept on egging me, wanting me to react to her remarks.
I chose to dis-identify this person's behaviour from who she really is, i.e. she is a child of God and that her behaviour is not who she is. I also chose to dis-indentify the thoughts you tried to introduce into my mind. I simply allow them to slide off me.
I consciously breathed in God and breathed out God. And I know that all is well in God's reality.
I am glad I stayed with God.
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