Letters To The Negative Ego™

Dear Negative Ego [frustration]

2010-09-17T08:22:00.000+08:00

My recording software decided to do a runner.....I recorded an entire channeled session for a client, saved it but when I opened the file again, it was just silence. It was gone. Nothing was there anymore. I've been spending days trying to resolve this problem but to no avail. Now my schedule is being pushed back once again....

You negative ego, want me to feel frustrated, you say that it is normal to be frustrated with this. And that it is justifiable to vent frustration and irritation. But I say, no I'm not going to lose my cool over this. All I need to do is to explain the delay to my clients and I am sure they will understand.

You negative ego, also wanted to me to think that I will be judged for this. But negative ego, I know this is not something I am doing purposely to sabotage my own work, these technical problems do happen. We use computers as tools to assist us in our work, but computer are not our gods. So negative ego, you are being silly here. I am not listening to your advice! Be gone!

Dear Negative Ego [victim consciousness]

2010-08-23T08:21:00.000+08:00

Well, this letter is long overdue but I just got to say this to you. You are silly to think that you can make me think I am a victim when I was on vacation. With my daughter falling ill and me lacking sleep as well as jet lag and having to take time to recover from exhaustion, you kept on trying to make me think that I am a victim in this whole situation. And that having spent time and money for a vacation that did not reward me with the rest I was looking forward to, you told me -- what's the point? For I am even more tired than before vacation, and you kept on wanting to me make me feel like a victim.

The truth is, yes, I am even more tired than before vacation but I am not a victim. I have chosen to see this as an opportunity to refine how I am using my time. In fact, because of this, I have come up with a more efficient and productive plan to have good and restful off days, and to take mini-vacations during my working week. I am so happy and excited about my new plan because not only am I getting the support from my family to do this, I will also become more productive!

So negative ego, you can try but you will never have the upper hand in this!

Dear Negative Ego

2010-07-06T11:12:00.002+08:00

I received inspiration from something i read to make things easier for me to 'laugh you off stage' -- everytime you speak, I am going to adjust your tone and pitch to make you sound like a cartoon character, perhaps like Minnie Mouse or Donald Duck.

So I can literally hear you sounding hilariously funny and I am laughing you off the stage now! Byeeee....

Dear Negative Ego

2010-06-28T06:50:00.001+08:00

I attended a 2-day seminar over the weekend and the participants were compiling a name list of all participants in order to network and keep in touch. A lady volunteered to type out the email addresses and she came up to a few of us and mentioned that she will be compiling the list. And we thanked her for her kindness.

The following day, I saw in the washroom and she reminded me to put my name down and that she was person who was going to type and compile the list. I overheard her saying the same thing to other people. An hour later, an announcement was made to participants to be reminded to write down our names by the facilitators. And the same lady stood up and said, And I will be the person who will be typing it.

You negative ego wanted me to laugh at her. You said that she was hungry for validation and that she is using this as a way to boost her self esteem and get attention, I said I know what I have observed but you wanted me to take one step towards your direction to judge her by attempting to introduce feelings of contempt towards her. But I simply smiled to myself and said to my friend next to me, "this lady has repeated many times that she will be typing the list". I made the statement matter of factly and as an observation without any negative feelings attached to deflect your attempts negative ego to move me into judgment and contempt.

Negative ego subtle as you may get at times, I will not let you get to me!

Dear Negative Ego [victim consciousness]

2010-06-05T18:34:00.000+08:00

I found out that one of my friends did something that was not in integrity. I do not want to judge him however his actions indirectly affects me. And this gave you the negative ego the opportunity to jump in to make me feel like a victim of his actions and the situation.

I refused to give in to you to feel like a victim. But you negative ego kept on trying to make me feel uncomfortable to the point of wanting to avoid this person and not wanting to have anything to do with this person.

I am not going to give in to this desire to 'hide', if I plan not to have anything to do with this person anymore, I will do it from a position of power from a position of establishing clear boundaries and not victimization. Negative ego, you can go away. I do not need your help in this. It is not my desire to work with you and I will have compassion for my friend for I perceive that he is blind to his actions and consequences.

Dear Negative ego re: [judgments]

2010-05-01T08:01:00.000+08:00

I went to a 3-day conference during the week and enjoyed myself tremendously. I enjoyed listening to all the high achiever speakers and learned a lot. I was feeling so inspired that I posted on my Twitter & Facebook about how I felt inspired by a particular speaker. Immediately after, someone posted a negative comment about this speaker. And then another person did the same. You, negative ego wanted me to feel bad and responsible for their actions. But I was glad to ask you to stay out of this, for I am not responsible for other people's negative actions.

But then, more negative ego comments were posted after that. Of course you found an opportunity to jump in again and you negative ego, wanted me to do several things: 1. feel insulted and taking what they said about the speaker as a personal attack against me, for you wanted me to feel like they have insulted my intelligence and my experience at the conference 2. and you negative ego also wanted me to judge these people for what they said.

Well, you know what negative ego, i was prepared that you would attempt all of the above. I told you immediately, thank you but not now, sorry! I placed you and your negative influences on my palm and violet flamed you as one would on a BBQ! I was glad :)

Negative ego, you can try but you won't get very far.

Dear Negative Ego re: Interruptions

2010-04-10T07:12:00.000+08:00

I was invited to a give a one hour talk on Positive Psychology sometime during the week to a well known property company. The participants were late in showing up and by the time I started the talk it was 15 mins past, even then not everyone has turned up yet.

So throughout the talk, we had people streaming in, interrupting the talk every few minutes or so. I had to remain focus so as not to lose my concentration as they had to walk across from my side of the room to the seats. It was your chance negative ego to jump in to try to bring in energies of agitation and frustration and being judgmental towards their tardiness. You wanted me to comment on their lateness, but I stopped you and said, let it slide. You wanted me to stop talking, keep silent and look at the late comers in the hope of embarrassing them. You wanted me to do these things to focus on their faults. You wanted someone to blame. And I do not even understand what is it that you want others to be blamed for. For I know that you negative ego is just unreasonable. This is how you are.

I refused to give you the energy to move further and insisted on remaining still in the eye of the hurricane you were attempting to expand. I delivered the talk and at the end of it had an interesting discussion with some of the participants.

I had a nice time and was glad I didn't follow your tune in focusing on being a fault finder. Be gone negative ego!

Dear Negative Ego re: {Patience}

2010-03-31T18:05:00.000+08:00

Last week I was tested on how much patience I had when dealing with the administration staff of a Children's Gymnastics school.

I was merely trying to book for a trial class for my daughter for Sat. And so the Monday before that I called the number given. The man who picked up said he would call me back in the afternoon when he had access to the computer. I was fine with that.

No phone call. Wednesday comes, I decided to call again. This time a lady picked up the phone and she tells me that she is not an admin staff and so cannot access the system but said she will leave a message for someone to call me back the next day.

Thursday comes. No phone call. So I called them in the afternoon and spoke to the same man who had no memory of us speaking on Monday and he said he would call me back when he had access to the system. Immediately I stopped him from hanging up by saying, "I will call you tomorrow if you give me a time". He hesitated and said "maybe it is better if I will call you", but I insisted and said, "no it is better I call you, give me a time". So he said to call him at 11am the next day and he was very polite about it.

[Reader, are you running out of patience yet reading this? lol!]

So Friday 11am comes. I call him. No answer. I try again in a few minutes, I got an engaged tone.

By this time, you negative ego was soooo ready to jump into the party! In that split second, you ran a judgmental thought through my mind, "What kind of a business are they running? This is Singapore, and not some third world country!" (no offense to people living in these countries, negative ego was really going for it!)

Immediately, I seized your negative ego thought as if I could literally grasp it by its neck and threw it out! And said to you, "Oh no, you don't. Not now! I've been practicing enough patience so far and I am not going to let you stop me from remaining even minded. Out you go!"

So I made that phone call again at 11.30am, the man answered, got the information I needed and got my daughter registered for Saturday.

[Sasha has since attended the trail class and loved it and will continue to do the class for the entire term. Thank you God for the lesson on patience!]

Bye negative ego.....

Dear Negative Ego [re: accident]

2010-03-10T11:50:00.000+08:00

While waiting for the bus this morning, a lady stood next to me and she dropped her umbrella on my toes (I was wearing sandals). The metallic part of the umbrella hit directly on the most sensitive part of my 2nd last small toe. I went ouch! and lifted my leg up not being able to put it down due to the pain.

The lady as if oblivious to what has happened, slowly picked up the umbrella and without looking at me, muttered sorry as though it was my fault for being there! You, negative ego really wanted my inner child to react towards her oblivion, wanting to send her negative vibes. So I said to you, negative ego, come on! this is not what I want to do. And proceeded to tell my body that this is a good reminder to ground my energies through my foot.

I almost chuckled out loud at the comedy of it all. So negative ego, here's another one for laughing you off stage!

Dear Negative Ego re: [dream]

2010-03-07T07:22:00.000+08:00

I had a strange dream yesterday where I was conducting a meditation class. Three unusual looking people came to class dressed in oversized black clothes. They were a father, son and daughter. They told me that the mother who was not there introduced them to love and light, which I thought was an odd statement. Just as I was starting the meditation, the sister started to talk on her phone which I chose to ignore. And then the brother started to talk to the person next to him about a guru he has. I told him to keep quiet as we were doing a meditation. Then he spoke even louder about his guru. I raised my voice and told him and his sister firmly that I will not have anyone disrupt the class and if they are not interested they must leave now.

I woke up from the dream, feeling a little dis-oriented, you negative ego tried to instill guilt in me, saying I was not being nice by saying what I said. I did not engage with you emotionally but I took a deep breath, spent some time grounding my energies and cleared my head and realised that it was indeed your voice niggling at me to feel guilt or bad for being firm to the people in the dream. Negative ego I will not have you sabotaging me and my best efforts, not even in my dream state. Be gone!

Dear Negative ego re: [illusion]

2010-02-21T06:54:00.001+08:00

We did a little detour when we had lunch in the city, and hopped on to a monorail to the little island off the mainland. Part of the island has been transformed to a resort, with a cluster of hotels, a casino and universal studios.

While we walked around investigating the changes, I felt a tinge of sadness overcome me. I knew immediately this is your work, negative ego. You made me feel a sense of sadness that the world has come to this -- that an island which used to have beautiful natural surroundings has now been transformed to a concrete jungle of hotels, casino and a playing field to cultivate mammon.

I quickly pulled you out and said, no I refuse to see the world through your perspective of despair and sadness. Yes it may be true that mammon seems to rule most of the world at this time, but that is not something I should be sad about or to allow you to come in to focus on illusion. I see this as an opportunity to remind me why I am here on earth and that all the more my focus must be in God and Self Realization.

Be gone negative ego!

Dear negative ego re: [compassion & judgment]

2010-02-11T06:53:00.000+08:00

Someone sent me an email calling me a 'farce' and saying that I was not 'genuine' and he ended the email with 'love' followed by his initials. I immediately responded in feeling compassion towards him that he would feel a need to attack in order to feel better about himself. I also saw the humour in the contradictory email, one of attack and 'love'.

A few minutes later, however, you negative ego decided that you needed to get in on the act and have your share of the pie as well, so you tried to instigate thoughts of judgment towards this man. I laughed you off and said to you, you are a little late with your comments. I have chosen to respond in compassion and I am going to stick with that!

Go away little one, you have no place in my consciousness.

Dear Negative Ego re: [laugh]

2010-02-07T07:28:00.000+08:00

With so many changes happening right now at the work front and personal front, I can see where and how you would try to jump in to catch me off guard, you have tried many times, and some of the times you did succeed for a short while until I realised it was your doing. Well, I found that the times I managed to pull myself out of your hold, were the times I laughed.

I laughed at my own mistakes, I laughed inside when someone says or does something negative to me, I laughed with loved ones over silly mis-communications, I simply laughed you off. Not only did the laughter offer physical and emotional/mental release of tension, the laughter helped me to think better! So there, negative ego, try to beat the laughter and smile off my face :)

Dear Negative Ego re: [Change]

2010-02-02T05:29:00.001+08:00

I recently changed my exercise regime as my body has gotten used to the old regime and so I have plateaued. The new regime is of a higher intensity and I do feel much better for it, and also increased stamina, and mental clarity.

You, negative ego, I can hear you chattering away in the background saying I won't be able to keep up with it and that I will give up because I am not able to maintain it in the long term. I want you to know that I have taken everything into consideration such as schedule, amount of time, fitness, value of the new regime and it is reaping the rewards I am looking for with a smaller amount of time put in. So don't try to steer me off course. I am on it and intend to be on it for the long term. Cheers to good health and bye to you negative ego!

Dear Negative Ego re: more busy-ness

2010-01-21T05:43:00.000+08:00

And so the busy-ness has not stopped, in fact things have increased in tempo in the last 10 days. Because of the untimely move of the office together with the pre-planned (more than 6 months ago) vacation which we are about to take tomorrow, it is now a tsunami of things to do! LOL! And boy, do I see you sneaking in with every opportunity to introduce thoughts and feelings of stress. I am putting out the fires now, but since today is the day where everything it coming together before I go, I know you will be there trying to steer me away from course.

In adjusting budgets for the move and renovation of the new office, I know you will try to sneak in thoughts of lack and say we don't have enough even when we do. So don't even try.

In managing contractors while I am away on vacation, I know you will try to sneak in to say they will do things wrongly if I am not here to supervise them. Well, I am going to have a last meeting with the contractor today and have an easy plan to work with them and I trust the contractor, so negative ego your attempts will be futile.

In managing people who want their sessions yesterday, I just have to explain the situation and hope they will understand. Negative ego, I know you will try to pull me off centre with this one. But I am staying rooted here, I am not going to go buy into your game. I always do my best ad even if situations are beyond my control, I am leaving it in the hands of God.

Negative ego, I know you've been trying to stop me from going on this vacation by saying that when I come back there's going to be more work, so is it worth going? You also say I should bring my laptop to try to sneak in some work because my email inbox is going to be overloaded by the time I get back. But I am not going to give in to you. If it is overloaded, so be it. I will just deal with one thing at a time and prioritise my time, things that are not urgent can always wait because I am going on my vacation whether you like it or not! :)

Dear Negative Ego re: Busy-ness

2010-01-10T17:14:00.000+08:00

It has been interesting start to the new year. Lots happening on the work front, and then daughter falling sick with viral fever, and at the same time looking for a new work space as we have to move out by the end of this month. Being so busy meant I spend a lot of my time doing, and in order to integrate my spiritual practices (and Be) amidst the hectic schedule, I have to multi-task more than usual.

You told me that I was not being sincere if I tried to Be in the now by focusing on God's name while doing something else at the same time. But I will not have you run me down. I know that by focusing on God's name amidst the busy-ness it gives me the strength, the energy to do what I have to and at the same time stay attuned to God.

I know this is only temporary, and that things will settle down. So negative ego, be gone for I will rest in the peace of God within my heart.

Dear Negative Ego re: [Spiritual warrior]

2010-01-06T07:00:00.001+08:00

I have laid out my plans and goals for the new year, and also set timelines and reminders to myself for all I would like to achieve on the levels of spiritual/psychological growth, service work, personal development, learning and gaining new knowledge, family life, relationships with others and many more.

I can see that you are brewing inside your little consciousness trying to think of ways to distract me and to come up with your own agenda to push me off track. I can feel that you are also putting up stronger and stronger fights, but I will not give in to you. I may go off track for a day, but I always pull myself back again, that much I know for sure. I want you to know that the battleground is ready and I am a Spiritual Warrior that never gives up. The time is now, and this is the lifetime that I have been waiting for, through all lessons acquired from past lives and this lifetime is like a showdown! And this is the point where I will put up the hardest fight towards God and Self Realization. So bring it on!

Dear Negative Ego re: [parenting]

2009-12-31T16:00:00.000+08:00

We went for a Parents-Teacher Meeting and we were discussing some of the little projects the children were doing at school. And one of them was a cooking project. The teacher told me that the kids made fried rice with salmon and they had a good time. And she said in a laughing manner, "And I'm sorry, I know Sasha is a vegetarian but I gave her some salmon to try...." laughter.

You wanted me to jump in and make a fuss about it, but I simply breathe it out and said, "Did she like it?"

When we left the meeting, I was thinking and weighing the options of what is best for our daughter. The method of education is what we like in this day care as it has an emphasis on self expression, creativity, life skills and so on.

However, you negative ego wanted me to feel that our vegetarian lifestyle was unsupported by the school. I made it clear to you negative ego, that this is to be expected in a world of largely meat eaters where there is still a lack of education of health, sustainable living and the practice of compassion towards other living creatures. I am just going to continue to educate our daughter in the best way I know how and at the same time acknowledge that I cannot shelter her from the world forever. I will do my best and trust in my own abilities to raise my child with our spiritual/moral/ethical values in this world we live in.

Dear Negative ego re: [illusion of lack of time and the illusion of death]

2009-12-21T07:47:00.000+08:00

I was planning to use this time before Christmas to catch up on paper work and emails, but grandma passed on yesterday. You tried to instill energies of stress by saying there's no time to do anything! When am I ever going to have time? I breathed your words out....

And listened to my own still voice within and know that this is just a glitch in time. With proper planning, all will work out well. Some things will have to wait as well. So here I am writing this blog and after which I will spend 15 minutes planning my time for the next few days and also to fulfill my commitment to my 4 year old that Christmas will be wonderful despite all that is going on.

So negative ego I know this is your big chance to jump into everything that is happening. But I promise you that I will be extra vigilant!

Dear Negative ego re: [judgment]

2009-12-16T17:19:00.001+08:00

Today my sister told me that our grandmother is dying. And I said, "she has been dying for the past 2-3 years".

As I said these words in a matter of fact way, you tried to instill guilt in me that I was being cold or lacking in compassion. The truth is my grandmother is in her 90s and in and out of hospital countless times and the doctor has called for the family to be at her bedside telling us to prepare for her death and this has been done at least 3 times already in the past 2 years. This of course has allowed the family to be very prepared for her transition but grandma remains strong and alive.

I observe that yes, the doctors have given us many false alarms, which is a blessing for the family to prepare but I am not going to allow you, negative ego to instill guilt in me because I am ready for grandma's transition. I am aware that it is a matter of time and I also know that there is no such thing as 'death'.

So negative ego, I know you will try to instill feelings/thoughts that are common in mass consciousness but I am not going to get involved with those lower thoughtforms. I choose to align with the higher understanding of transition and the concept of 'death'.

Dear Negative ego re: [illusion]

2009-12-09T06:42:00.000+08:00

As things are getting busy as I am leaving for Hong Kong tomorrow, you have been trying to jump in to start your own party. I am not going to give in to you. You introduced energy sapping thoughts such as, there is too much to do, there's not enough time, or it is too tiring. These are sliding off my golden bubble of protection. I want you to know that I already have my schedule in place, so don't try to sway me into your patterns. I am not going to let you pull me off centre.

I am happy to say that I am full of energy and I am on target with what I want to achieve today and even have time to spend with my family and to complete my chores.

Dear Negative ego re: [patience]

2009-12-07T08:23:00.000+08:00

This must be a season of giving as well as repetitions :-)

I was at the supermarket but I didn't bring my shopping bag as it was an unplanned trip to buy some grocery. I went to the cashier and told her to put everything in one plastic bag. She looked at me as if she understood but proceeded to put my things into two bags, so I repeated my request politely again thinking she didn't hear me the first time. She looked at me again, and then continued to put the things into two bags! At this time, negative ego, you were all ready to pounce in. But I remained centred and refused to engage with you in any way. And I looked and smiled at the cashier and said one more time, please put everything in one bag, gesturing 'one bag' at the same time. Then she finally understood me!

You, negative ego again tried to jump in by saying judgmentally, if she didn't understand why didn't she ask! I brushed you off not wanting to give you any more energy than you deserve.

This may be a season of giving, but I am not giving my power away to you negative ego!

Dear Negative ego re: [vigilance]

2009-12-06T07:36:00.000+08:00

A friend offered a service which I needed, I agreed to the terms including the fee knowing that he will not be able to deliver his service in integrity, as this has been a pattern of his from the past. Knowing what I know but because I needed the service (and in my mind decided that this was going to be the last time I use his services), I agreed. But I could see you slowly creeping in.

So the day came and true enough, at the last moment, the service was not up to par which caused some inconvenience to me. But I was prepared for it. In anticipation of what might happen, I created a battleplan before hand on how to handle this. I gave him a chance to right it, but he didn't take it. So remaining centred I did what I had to do. Negative ego, you tried to pull me into judgment of him, as well as self blame. But I told you, I am already prepared for this so don't even try to pull me off centre.

I am glad all turned out well for me in the end. And that I took responsibility for what I created for myself.

Dear Negative Ego re: [parenting]

2009-12-01T10:58:00.000+08:00

I was reading to my young daughter her bed time story last night and you tried hard to get in into your act. My daughter was asking me a question and I answered her patiently, three seconds later, she asked me the same question and I repeated my answer. Five seconds later she asked the same question again. I could see you coming in and wanting me to get into your act. So I breathed in deeply and answered her again. Then she went on to ask me the same question two more times. I let it pass and said, I'm going to continue reading the book and you can ask me your question later. We finished the book and my young daughter forgot about her question.

This incident reminded me of a video I saw (see below) on youtube. Negative ego, I can see how you would love to jump in and introduce your negative thoughts and feelings. But I am not going to play your game. Be gone.

Dear Negative ego re: [indecision]

2009-11-26T15:40:00.003+08:00

While booking for my air ticket for my upcoming trip to HK, you tried to put me in two minds. Because the prices of air tickets have gone up considerably on my preferred dates of travel, you say it is ok to not to make a decision yet, while in the background trying to introduce all kinds of negative thoughts about the travel arrangements.

I observe that you were trying to introduce fuzziness in my mind and to also engage my emotional body in a negative sense. Logically speaking with such a short time span left, there is no chance the prices are coming down, for they will be going up. So I took a deep breath, spent 2 mins to clear my mind and made a decision. I learned from Dr Stone that making a 'bad' decision is better than not making a decision at all and I am glad I didn't flow your train of fuzzy thoughts.

I am happy that all the arrangements have been made, and I am also taking a day off while in HK since I didn't get the preferred date to come home. So I will make use of my day off with some sightseeing and a little half day retreat by myself. Thanks but no thanks to you negative ego.

Dear Negative ego re: [illusion]

2009-11-24T07:00:00.000+08:00

I had an email discussion with a friend and student and we talked about how convoluted your work can be. We see through your illusion. When you surface within a person's mind, you thrive in allowing the person to firstly over identify with your thoughts and then you instigate a fight between one of your thoughtforms with another one of your thoughtforms! So it is in truth, you fighting with another aspect of you, just so you can stay alive in a person's consciousness.

My friend and I saw through this and we thought how funny this is!

Negative ego, we just want you to know that we will laugh you off the stage if this is the last thing we do!

Dear Negative ego re: [little irritants]

2009-11-21T07:10:00.000+08:00

You've been trying pull me off centre the past few mornings. I am happy to say by today, your voice has almost diminished with regards to the situation with my dog. I am not going to give you power in this, so you might as well stay away.

My 13 year old beagle, Trix who is deaf and almost blind has picked up this habit of barking now every morning at 5am. Beagles with sharp noses can smell anything a mile away. So Trix knows when I am awake even though she is confined at the back kitchen for her own safety (but she can smell me!) and she is insistent that taking her for her walk should be the first thing I do now instead of waiting for 6 or 6.30am, which means my morning routine is also now thrown off. So she barks to get my attention and she knows that I will go to her because I don't want to wake the entire neighourhood up with her incessant baying. Her barking tends to echo through the whole condo estate!

Anyway, negative ego, your efforts to introduce irritation and anxiety towards the dog is not working. I spotted it on the first day they surfaced. But I chose not to energise them, but made the conscious effort instead to remain even and calm. Changing my morning routine is no big deal, it is working out fine with me and Trix. So negative ego, stay away!

Dear Negative ego re: [vigilance]

2009-11-17T16:15:00.000+08:00

I knew how you would come in when I am in a half asleep mode so I was really glad I reminded myself to watch out for you.

Last night after being woken up by a loud and incessant vibration from the apartment downstairs, I couldn't go back to sleep as the sound and vibration were going through the floor, the bed and my pillow. I could not figure out what it was, but it sounded like a big machine that was going. I told myself that you would surface to try to pull me off centre, and lo and behold! you did. You introduced judgmental thoughts about the neighbour downstairs. But I refused to listen. I simply went to another room to continue my sleep.

Negative ego, I have had experience of you slipping in easily when I was in half sleep mode, but not this time! Be gone!

Dear Negative ego re: [judgments]

2009-11-15T08:06:00.000+08:00

You said all kinds of things while I was standing at the podium waiting for people to turn up for the talk. You said they were rude, disrespectful and lack common courtesy, and you said these not in observation but with a certain level of spitefulness. I let your words slip by, making sure I was not energising them just focusing on my breathing and connecting with the Divine and why I was there in the first place.

I was invited to give a lunch time talk at a big local corporation and it was due to begin at noon. When noon came along, only 3 turned up. I asked how many were going to be present, they said 30. By 12.10, I told the organizer that I would start in 2 minutes. She said, it is best to wait till 1/2 the numbers have turned up, so I asked firmly and calmly, what time will that be? She was uncomfortable that I was making a firm stand and so she said, can we wait till 12.15? I agreed. The talk was uneventful as most of the participants were not engaging and many seemed to there only for the food! But credit must be given to the handful who were upbeat throughout. I did my part and left.

After the talk, you wanted me to compare my time with other big corporations and how much more polite, organized and graceful they were. But I told you to stop! Negative ego I can see how you would try to sway me in your direction, but I will remain firm and do my part to connect with God in all of life's situations. Be gone!

Dear Negative ego...

2009-11-13T06:55:00.001+08:00

I see the traps you set up for many on the spiritual path. Having people believe that they are on the path of mastery when they have spiritual knowledge and having people believe that they are on the way to mastery just because they have certain knowledge and information. I have fallen into your trap in the past. And I will not allow you to trap me again.

I know that what I know in my mind and my patterns of behaviour must be in alignment with God consciousness. To paraphrase Dr Stone, if what we know and what we do are not in alignment, this will result in separative consciousness. And indeed these are words of wisdom, and are so true.

So I am determined to do what I have to do to keep on transforming my thoughts (conscious and subconscious ones), my feelings/emotions, my speech, my actions to be in total alignment with what I know through my spiritual studies. It is certainly not enough to know, I must act, breathe and be the God consciousness on every level of my being.

Negative ego, I know you are not going to just let me go so easily. But I want you to know that I am aware of your illusionary nature and I will keep on working on clearing these illusions for as long as I am in existence in God's universe so that my reality will be in alignment with the reality of God. And that's a promise!

Dear Negative ego re: [care of the physical body]

2009-11-10T16:28:00.000+08:00

It is always the same pattern you try to instill in my consciousness whenever I return home away from a weekend of workshops. You try to instill thoughts that I should get on with work the moment I return as there is a backlog of work to catch up on. But I know better, it is important for me to keep the physical body balanced with proper rest. I am not playing into your game of guilt, I focus on what I need to do to remain balance.

The interesting thing is, when I am balanced physically, I find that I do in fact have the time to finish what I plan to do at a much quicker pace! So negative ego, you are not winning at this!

Dear Negative ego re: [illusion]

2009-11-08T08:42:00.000+08:00

You were out in full force the first day I arrived here in this service apartment in KL. The energies in this place was really murky and suffocating and I knew that there were some major clearing of the space needed. I switched apartments two times already, and this current apartment seems to be the best of the lot. You tried to instill all kinds of thoughts that are not in alignment with God while I did the clearing of the space. I had a difficult first night working through this murky space and with the support of God, spirit and the masters we managed it. But you kept trying to come in with your own agenda. Thank God for the core fear matrix removal program, I kept you at bay and did what I had to do to make the space as clear as possible.

I am glad now that all is well and I can continue to work and stay in this place for another night. Negative ego, I see that what I experienced was just a test, I am blessed for it makes me an even effective healer and has improved my skills in energy clearing! Bye negative ego!

Dear Negative Ego re: [focus]

2009-11-05T04:51:00.000+08:00

I have to give you credit for trying, you are quite persistent in your pursuits. I guess you are just doing your job to stay alive. But I work for God so I will not consciously help you to stay afloat by feeding you in big or small ways.

I almost got caught in your game yesterday when you used your Lower Seducer to try to distract me from doing what I was supposed to do, telling me that what you had in mind was more important. Thank God I saw through your game after a minute or so, and decided to call on Lower Seducer's twin, the Higher Seducer to talk me out and through the process

I may falter at times negative ego, but I won't be seduced by you.

Dear Negative Ego re: [parenting]

2009-11-03T06:15:00.000+08:00

My young daughter has been asking me lots of questions about God, heaven and death. Questions such as where was she before she was born? Did we know each other as little girls when we were in heaven with God? How does God look like? If God made everything, then why are houses built by people?

You negative ego tried to look for easy ways out of this by recommending answers that are delusional and untrue. You will try to look for ways to escape these questions. You do not want her to know the truth, neither do you want her to be educated in the right way.

I make my stand clear with you that I will not allow you to interfere in her spiritual education. I will be creative in my age relevant replies to allow her to understand within her scope. I will not allow you to instill impatience even if her questions come at an 'inconvenient' time. You try so hard at times, but please negative ego you are not winning at this, just be gone!

Dear Negative ego re: [wronged]

2009-11-02T11:27:00.000+08:00

I was trying to be helpful to a friend instead I was accused of being impatient! Boy, did you come in and try to get me going on this. But I said, STOP! None of this nonsense. I am not going to listen to you and your agendas, I've done my part to be helpful and whatever my friend's perceptions are of me is none of my business. I've also looked at my own motives to see if I came from a right place.

Negative ego, I really don't need your help in this, so be gone!

Dear Negative ego re: [illusion]

2009-10-29T06:35:00.000+08:00

I was contemplating upon the actions of a friend. I observe that he often pretends to be something he is not. I see how you the negative ego works within him, to give him a false sense of confidence, a false sense of security and a false sense of reality.

You tried to make me CRINGE when he said somethings he should not have said in front of people he didn't know that well, in an attempt to show that he is knowledgeable. Unfortunately, it only shows how ignorant he really was, like a frog in a well. You almost succeeded in making me feel embarrassed for him. But I took a step back and reminded myself that this is not my lesson. And that I am not responsible for his actions so I am not going to give you, negative ego the pleasure of putting me in a position of being embarrassed. Because embarrassment is one of yours, and is not of God.

Be gone negative ego! I won't buy into your illusion.

Dear Negative ego re: [health]

2009-10-27T09:01:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, while having breakfast at the hotel in Hong Kong someone eating heartily away caught my eye. He was an overweight gentleman eating a plate of full chocolate doughnuts and bacon. You jumped in immediately and said in a judgmental way, it won't be long before he has a heart attack!

I let your comment slide off and chose not to energize it further. But my mind was also pre-occupied with thinking, what will I say to my daughter if she saw that man eating what he ate, when I just told her that we don't eat these things because it is unhealthy. I remained centred and prepared a reply in my mind on what to say to her (in a non-judgmental way towards anyone) should she ask.

Negative ego, I am not going to allow you to put me in a position of dilemma and I will speak the truth, in a non-judgmental way especially in educating my young child. Bye negative ego, be gone.

Dear Negative ego re: [vigilance]

2009-10-22T11:09:00.000+08:00

I facilitated a mini workshop last night to a group of about 55 women. The topic was on Romantic Relationship & Communication. It was by and large a good mini workshop.

At the end the workshop, the women were given survey forms to fill in to assist us to improve on our services and also for market research. After the whole workshop was over, we looked through the forms to see the kinds of feedback we were getting.

One of the forms stood out from the rest. The question asked was, how relevant was the topic of the workshop to the participant. The answer was, not relevant and poor relevance.

You negative ego zeroed on on that immediately tried to jump in and I could hear your voice saying, "Then why did she come to the workshop? The title was self explanatory! It was for women only! And it was on relationship and communication! What was she thinking?"

I observed what you said, but let it slide off and didn't energise it further. I was having a good day and a good end to the day and I was not about to let you ruin it for me. You can say whatever you want about the feedback from that person, but I am not taking what has been said personally. It is none of my business why the person came. I was there, I delivered well and I know many gained a lot from it.

Negative ego be gone!

Dear Negative Ego re: [judgment]

2009-10-20T07:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, you tried to jump in as I was listening to a friend complaining about some things and some people in her life. As I was listening to her, I discerned that everything she was complaining about other people are the exact same things that she does to other people as well. Immediately, you jumped in and said, she deserves what she gets!

I pushed you out of my mind and then you tried to jump in again, with the thought: you are not discerning, you are judging.

I see your game negative ego, you try to introduce thoughts of confusion. But I know better than that, I know that when I discern, I am observing and understanding. Judgments are not of God and I have no desire to give it the power and attention it doesn't deserve. Be gone, negative ego!

Dear Negative Ego re: [parenting]

2009-10-19T07:20:00.000+08:00

I saw how you tried to get to my daughter yesterday...she was cranky for the first part of the day. Blaming everything and everyone for everything. So I said to her teasingly while smiling, "Oh you're such a victim, poor little you. Why did you then give your power away?"

Then she said innocently, "No, the power didn't flow out of my hands" So I said, "Good, keep it."

Later she was given a one minute time out for bad behaviour. You, negative ego didn't like it one bit. I saw how you tried to put her in a state of confusion and conflict. And I insisted that she apologised to everyone. And she willingly obliged, "Ok mummy" and was happier afterwards.

It is always good to get you out of the way, negative ego! I know my daughter has not fully grasp the concept of personal power but she is slowly understanding that she has a choice in creating how she feels. So negative ego, I won't let you stay long in our household, be gone!

Dear Negative Ego re: [duality]

2009-10-17T08:58:00.001+08:00

This morning, one of my neighbours who lives below us was screaming at her live in helper on the balcony. She screamed for a long time.

You negative ego tried to put me in a state of your duality, by first saying it is none of my business and I should just keep quiet despite the screams and noise made early in the morning. And then you decided to swing to the other extreme by saying that, I should go down there and tell her off because she was waking up the whole estate.

I thought to myself, I am not going to listen to you negative ego. But I will take action that will neither be intrusive nor offensive. So I called up the security guards and told them of the situation. They said they will have a look and will remind her of the disturbance she is causing to her neighbours. That calmed the situation for now.

I observe that this neighbour is bordering on psychologically abusing her helper and if out of control she might just physically abuse her as well. I said to myself that I will do whatever I can to inform the authorities if things get out of hand, because I can see clearly what goes on on her balcony from my office at home.

(The helper like many others in Singapore are foreigners coming here to earn a meagre income for hardwork [modern day slavery] and often times do not realise that they have rights as human beings because they grew up in third world countries with little understanding of this concept of human rights.)

Negative ego I will not listen to the illusion of your duality. I will do whatever I can that is spiritually and karmically right for my fellow brother/sister in need.

Dear Negative Ego re: [judgment]

2009-10-16T08:56:00.002+08:00

I see how you operate in so many aspects of life, within myself, within other people. The over-identification with your thought system in mass consciousness and especially in 'spiritual' practitioners is mind boggling.

As part of my service work, I give update quotient and initiation readings to interested parties. About 5% of the recipients of this reading are not happy with what they receive and will attack back in various ways and means. During times like these, you try to influence me to give up what I do - because you say it is not worth it, and you say that this job doesn't have any rewards and that I am a punching bag for people who do not like what they hear. You also say that people love to shoot the messenger!

But I refuse to fight negative ego with negative ego. I will continue to fight these thoughts with God consciousness for I know the benefits that many others have gained from this service.

I have been attacked many times over the course of 6 years doing this sort of readings, and I know that no matter what I say in return in kindness, in compassion, in love, it will always be misinterpreted because you have influenced the 'attackers' mindset. The interesting thing is that the attacks only goes to 'prove' that the update evaluation of where they stand in their evolution was right. All I can do is reach out to God and remain silent because there is nothing to defend.

Negative ego, I will not give in to you in this. I will continue to dis-identify the attackers' actions from their true essence. I will recognize them for who they are i.e. a divine beings, no matter what. When I do this, I also give myself the opportunity to recognize my own divinity. So negative ego, I don't need your help in this, be gone!

Dear Negative Ego re: {personal power}

2009-10-15T05:39:00.000+08:00

I was speaking to someone I know quite well on the phone and the connection was not very good and I misheard her. In her agitation, she shouted at me in a contemptuous way as though I was being daft. You tried to make me retaliate, but I held on to the breath of God and breathe it in me. And re-established my golden bubble. I continued on the conversation as if nothing has happened.

This has taught me once again to be extra vigilant when interacting with this person, because it teaches me how not to behave. And most certainly the contempt and agitation displayed is not about me, but her.

Thanks, but no thanks negative ego, I certainly do not need your help in this. Be gone!

{I've been having problems with blogger the last few days and just couldn't post anything on this blog and this is why there has been an absence. :-) }

Dear Negative ego re: [judgment]

2009-10-12T06:34:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I encountered some inconsiderate people at my daughter's pre-school ballet class and you tried to get me to jump onto the bandwagon to join in the negative ego party. But I coolly walked away without allowing the situation to escalate.

It was a really small issue but was a big deal to others, and I will not give you the satisfaction of having any judgments towards them. Other people's lessons are not mine. I only focus on what I need to learn from this situation through observation. And when next weekend comes around, I know what not to do.

Thank you very much for this lesson but God is my way.

Dear Negative ego re: [inner child]

2009-10-10T06:06:00.000+08:00

I had a good laugh yesterday while playing tennis with my coach. Coach said that I looked tired and that I should break as I was not breathing properly while I was hitting the ball. And you instigated my inner child with this fleeting thought: "What does he know? He is less fit than you are, you can run around the block for hours while he pants like crazy hitting a few balls!"

I laughed at you and your attempts and immediately said to coach, "Yes, I agree with you, I think I was not conscious of my breathing while I was doing my ground strokes. I will pay attention in the next round."

You withered away with those words and I grinned to myself. Coach looked at me with a look like he was wondering why I was grinning like a nut. But never mind, it is better to have someone think I am nuts than to give my power away to you. Bye bye negative ego!

Dear Negative ego re: [illusion]

2009-10-09T07:02:00.000+08:00

You are just an illusion attempting to make yourself real. I have to say you are pretty persistent in all your efforts and you have managed to convince most of humanity that you are real. Which makes life on earth a joke. I am not saying this in a sarcastic way, I mean it as it is. Because when people start to realise that you are not real, they will begin to see that indeed it has been a big joke.

I often see the humour in all that you try to dish out in my life which makes me laugh. I see through your game, and I am not going to give in to you and your agendas without a fight. I saw how you tried to pass judgment on a friend yesterday, but I didn't give in, I just let it pass without giving it any energy. I saw how you tried to instill the glamour of being busy in my life. I rather focus on doing the work in service to God, then thinking about the work and indulging in this glamour and not getting anything done.

Your attempts are illusionary, but I will keep up my work to dispel your attempts because my true identity is in God.

Dear Negative ego re: [honesty]

2009-10-07T20:18:00.000+08:00

I see how sneaky you can be. I checked out of the hotel in KL yesterday morning and the front desk receptionist didn't show me the invoice, but she told me verbally what the charges were. I thought to myself that the charges were lower than I expected and didn't think anything of it. I paid her the amount in cash, and the lady folded the invoice and placed it inside the envelope.

This morning, when I opened the invoice, I realised that there were several things not listed on the invoice, including a room service meal and broadband services. And you, negative ego said that it is ok because it is not my mistake! Thank God, I live with integrity and immediately contacted the hotel about it.

Negative ego, don't try this with me. I will never live my life in dishonesty even if it was not my mistake. You, be gone now!

Dear Negative ego re: [vigilance]

2009-10-06T19:10:00.000+08:00

I had a long and intensive weekend of workshops and you tried to take the opportunity to steer me out of my centredness today - on my last day in Malaysia. I got on the coach to take me back to Singapore, but the journey was longer than usual with hiccups and waiting along the way. It became almost a 7 hour coach ride back. There was also a big group of of tourists on the coach who were talking and shouting at the top of their voices throughout the entire journey. I tried to rest but you kept wanting to interfere by injecting all kinds of judgmental thoughts about the coach service, and the tourists.

I said to you, I'm not going to play into your game....not after a long weekend of vigilance that was maintained. But you know what, I knew that something like this was going to happen because it is always wise to expect to be tested and to be ready for it. Despite the weariness, I remained in the eye of the hurricane and came home at peace with myself and how I handled you and myself.

Dear Negative ego re: [spiritual weariness]

2009-10-03T07:18:00.000+08:00

With my busy traveling schedule these days, I can see how you would like to take advantage of this to feed your own gain. But you know what, I've prepared for this in my battleplan. I knew how you would try to manipulate it to your advantage. I am glad I battleplanned for this because I saw how you tried to instigate weariness and tiredness of traveling by finding faults in situations and circumstances in my journey to KL yesterday.

I kept my motivation clear in my mind and that paid off. My spiritual motivation is as strong as ever, and I know that I've taken a clear stand as a teacher/facilitator for God's team.

Cheers to God's team!

Dear Negative ego re: [judgments]

2009-10-01T14:41:00.000+08:00

I was at the post office and saw an obese boy, not more than 6 years old being fed french fries by his mum. You came into my mind at the sight of the mother and child, and you said in a judgmental way, Look at that! I said to you, not now please.

As I continue to observe both mother and child, I recognize that most people are not educated enough to know what is appropriate and what is inappropriate to feed themselves and their children. And I put it all down to ignorance. You tried to jump in again, saying the mother needs a crash course on diet and parenting!

I shook my head to clear your negative thoughts and said to you, it is none of my business what she does. She does what she does because it is the only way she knows how.

Be gone negative ego, I am not going to feed you. I am aligned with God consciousness and recognise the essence of God in both the mother and child.

Dear Negative Ego re: {control issues}

2009-09-29T15:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday you knocked on my door countless times trying to egg me on, and putting negative thoughts in my mind in my interactions with this particular person who has aggressive control issues. She keeps trying to tell me what to do and what not to do, when she doesn't have a clear picture of what I do. You then kept on egging me, wanting me to react to her remarks.

I chose to dis-identify this person's behaviour from who she really is, i.e. she is a child of God and that her behaviour is not who she is. I also chose to dis-indentify the thoughts you tried to introduce into my mind. I simply allow them to slide off me.

I consciously breathed in God and breathed out God. And I know that all is well in God's reality.

I am glad I stayed with God.

Dear Negative Ego re: {household chores}

2009-09-28T17:05:00.001+08:00

I saw how you tried to come into my mind when I woke up early yesterday morning with the aim to re-decorate the living room. I felt that the current setting in the living room was not allowing the energies to flow effectively. So I started thinking of a better layout plan. You tried to stop me by saying that re-decorating is going to be disruptive for everyone and that it was not worth doing it, you just wanted me to procrastinate.

I continued on with the plan in mind and gently told my daughter that all her toys will be moved, and she accepted it without putting up a fight. You negative ego then tried again to instill negative thoughts by saying that it will take up far too much time and energy to do this. But I ignored you.

Eventually it took less than 2 hours for me and my family to move the furniture around the entire living, cleaned up the dusty corners, packed the toys into a large wicker 'treasure chest' and immediately the entire room looked much brighter and bigger! The energies were immediately renewed and flowing much more effective. I am so glad to have put in the 2 hours even though we were going to have a pretty busy day.

We now have a much nicer family room to enjoy. No thanks to you negative ego.

Dear Negative Ego re: {guilt}

2009-09-27T06:11:00.001+08:00

The feelings of guilt is something you use a lot to come into the area of parenting. I see it in action in my clients, in other people and I was not surprised when you tried to surface yesterday in my interaction with my daughter.

We were out running errands, and had lunch at the food court. I bought a vegetarian fried rice for her, not knowing that it was going to be slightly spicy. As she began eating it, she said that it was spicy but she insisted on eating it saying that she will drink water at the same time. You tried to move me into guilt. I caught you saying to me, "It is all your fault that she is not able to enjoy her lunch".

Immediately, I laughed at this thought, about how ridiculous it was! You diminished as soon as you surfaced.

My daughter did enjoy her lunch, she said it was delicious.

So negative ego, you can try, but I will never let you get the better of me.

Dear Negative ego re: [judgments]

2009-09-26T06:21:00.000+08:00

I am glad I didn't let you have a hold on my mind when a friend whom I've not spoken to for years called me. Just a few weeks ago, I bumped into her nearby my office, but she turned away when she saw me. I let that go as I felt she still had some issues with me (whatever that may be!)

And then she called me yesterday. I was very surprised of course. And you, the negative ego kept on trying to instigate judgments, it was the perfect opportunity for you to come in and introduce negative thoughts about this person. But I am so glad that I was prepared, I knew what you would come up with in my interaction with this friend. So I squashed you in all your attempts to pull me out of centredness, and God consciousness. I focused on listening to my friend from a state of "Now", not allowing the past to affect me. I am so glad to say that I scored for God! Not this time negative ego. Bye.

Dear Negative ego re: [little irritants]

2009-09-25T07:19:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I bought a story book for my daughter which costs about $12. Later on in the day, I saw the same book which costs $10 in another shop. I thought to myself, I paid 20% more at the other shop! And I will never go back there again!

As I pondered on my thoughts, at first I thought I was coming from power. Then I realised that I made that decision based on disgruntled feelings. In a small way, I felt like I was 'cheated'. In other words I was a victim. And I had given you, the negative ego power over me over this small mater. I allowed you to instigate feelings of being 'cheated'.

So I decided to change the way I thought and felt. I decided that I now know another place to purchase the range of story books that my daughter enjoys at a better price. And that I paid the additional $2 the first time around as a 'service' to obtain this information. Once I looked at it from this perspective, I realised I was no longer a victim but a master of my consciousness, which in turn magnetizes greater abundance in my life.

I know this is true, because I have time and time again worked with the power of magnetization in a positive way. So negative ego, get out of my way, don't try to use the little things in life to get to my mind, I will make sure I am one step ahead of you. You have no place on my path to the greater abundance of God!

Dear Negative ego re: [hope]

2009-09-24T05:54:00.000+08:00

I attended to some clients yesterday. And there was one particular person who was filled with anguish and difficulty that he was not able to see beyond his problems. You tried to instill a sense of hopelessness in me, saying to me that this is a lost cause. I quickly destroyed that thought, for I know consciously that we are all children of God and that in truth, no one is a lost cause. And in truth, everyone will eventually return to God in their own time and in God's time.

I am hopeful that things will get better for this person. If I am not able to assist him, I am sure some one else will. And that he will eventually see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I say to you now, hopelessness of the negative ego that you have no place in my consciousness and especially no place in my service work. Be gone!

Dear Lower Destroyer re: {organisation of time}

2009-09-23T07:39:00.000+08:00

I know you are from the negative ego thought system. And you tried to shake me up yesterday by attempting to destroy my organization and time. I was on schedule to get things done yesterday but you told me it is ok to break at that time to do other things because I deserve the break because I worked so hard over the weekend in Hong Kong.

I know I deserve the break, I have already planned a constructive day with time for rest, relaxation and work. So don't try to disrupt my time table and allow procrastination to take over me. Yes the tasks at hand may be mundane but they are necessary to get done. I kept my focus on service to God and ultimately, they were not as mundane.

I was glad I used your Higher brother, called the Higher Destroyer whose energy is like Archangel Michael or Lord Shiva, to destroy the thought of procrastination and delay. I felt powerful after destroying all the negative energies that tried to throw me off.

I completed all that I set out to do and more! I even had a really nice relaxing time reading. So lower Destroyer you can try, but your Higher brother is the one I choose to work with. For he is a part of God.

Dear Negative ego re: [children's vulnerability]

2009-09-22T05:32:00.000+08:00

I saw how you surfaced in my young child last night. You made her feel powerless and angry. She was very upset that she didn't get what she wanted for dinner when we were out for a meal. And she said defiantly that she was very upset with her daddy because he didn't get her what she wanted. She folded her arms across her chest and said she will not eat it. I know this is your doing, negative ego. You made her feel powerless and you influenced her in thinking that she is justified in feeling upset.

So I told her, "Darling, don't give your power away. Don't get upset over this. Try this delicious noodles and you will like it." She sighed and gave it a try and realised that she likes this noodle and she felt really happy about it.

I know that you will keep on influencing her negative ego, but I will not let this happen for long. I saw how she felt and experienced the fact that she is not as powerless as she thought. She may not be able to grasp the concept in her 4 year old mind, but she felt it last night and the transformation was immediate. I am happy for her.

So this is a warning to you, negative ego, that you can try but you will never succeed in the long term.

Dear Negative ego re: [vigilance]

2009-09-21T05:00:00.000+08:00

I watched for you yesterday. But it was not obvious to me, even if you did surface in my consciousness. I had a busy day with a workshop and sessions later. I was focused on doing God's work and perhaps didn't have the spare time to let you come in. Maybe you did surface and I wasn't aware. However, I am not going to rest on my laurels and I certainly do not think that you are gone for good. I know you will always try, but guess what, I will never give up my connection to God no matter how tempting, no matter how challenging you may have me perceive the world and my challenges.

I will continue to be vigilant and watch out for you because it is not my desire for you to have power over me in any way. I will continue to score for God.

Dear Negative ego re: [dreams, dream state]

2009-09-20T06:10:00.001+08:00

there you go again....you tried to come into my dream state didn't you? In my half dream state this morning, you told me that there is nothing beyond life on earth. You showed me a space of nothingness and darkness. But you did not last long, I saw the light and brought in light in my inner vision. And I saw the most beautiful open field of lavender and a sense of peace and then you said, that I will be here all alone for eternity because there is nothing beyond this. I told you to get behind me, you don't stand a chance! And then I brought in the energies of my I AM Presence and I felt the presence of God.
Why do you keep trying negative ego? Is it because I did a workshop on Integrated Ascension yesterday? The workshop went well and you didn't like it. Tough.
I will have another wonderful workshop today.

Dear Negative ego re: [care of the physical body]

2009-09-19T05:34:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, you tried to make me give in to my weariness, I was tired and hungry after working all day with no time for lunch, back to back sessions all day long. You tempted me to want to eat unhealthily because my body was hungry for anything. But I remained focused and glad to have told you: not this time buddy. And I chose the healthier but limited option. I feel better for it this morning. And I am looking forward to another wonderful day in HK.

Dear negative ego re: [irritation, judgments]

2009-09-18T07:37:00.002+08:00

Yesterday you tried to instill agitation when I was tired after my flight and having to wait a long time at immigration. Then the Q at the shuttle bus was long and people were cutting Q. You tried, very hard to make me have judgments about the people cutting Q. I was closed to giving in to you. But I caught my myself and decided it was not worth it. I let it go and the man behind the counter attended to me quickly.

When I go on the bus, you tried again to make me feel irritated when the people who cut my Q decided to sit next to me across the aisle. They were talking loudly. But I told you, not now. I am going to enjoy my ride. I was rewarded with a beautiful view of Kowloon.

Negative ego, I know you will try hard but my perseverance is stronger. Next...